Shameful Plug for College funds

I have come to realize that I live in an extremely expensive part of the world and I need more funding for college that I had originally thought. My tuition is paid for, but some books and equipment are not. So I decided to see if a GoFundMe account could offset a small portion of the expenses. Not sure how many people actually read my blog that know me, but there are a fair amount of readers. So if you know me, and would like to help out, here’s the link! Clicky!!  Check it out, let me know what you think! Thanks!!

Time, Colds, and Two

Sorry its been a while. The holidays came and then so did my second full time job. Just a quick note, then I have to run out to work.

Roommates left for their Christmas trip to Nicaragua. They didn’t come back until after the first of the year. Daughter left and came back from visiting her Father. She seems to have had a good time, but was very glad to be home. I guess he doesn’t pay as much attention to her when his other kids are around. To be perfectly honest he doesn’t call or text her very much even when she does have her phone. I knew once his son was born she would be forgotten. I tried to remind him that he has a beautiful and wonderful daughter, but now his fiancee’s daughter calls him “Daddy” and my daughter, who just wants HER “Daddy” is left by the wayside. A picture was posted of their “Family” but my daughter was not included. Makes one wonder…

I have not told Daughter, or most of the people close to me, but I had a miscarriage a week before Christmas. I was only about four or five weeks tops, but it still hurt. I had the picture of the test and I was going to print it and put it in the Christmas tree for Handsome. Instead, after all of the Christmas festivities, I had to tell him my bad news.  We cried together and he held me. He knows with my condition its difficult to conceive, and eve harder to take a baby to term, but I think it actually sank in for him. It was not an easy Christmas.

New Years was a little better, I set up a beautiful romantic meal for Handsome and I, though he was an hour and 45 minutes late, and we ate a beautiful dinner and watched The Hobbit. Basically just spending the whole night together cuddling on the couch, which was really nice. the next day we went and picked up Daughter from her visit.

Life has been throwing me opportunities and I feel like a fool if I don’t take them. A week before the year ended I was given a 2$ raise at my primary job, and two weeks before that I was offered a full time position at this amazing 50s diner, which I accepted. I love both of my jobs, but I think I am tiring myself out just a little too much. I’m out of the house before 7AM and not back in on bad days until after midnight. If I was eating the way I’m supposed to I’d be fine, but with roommates and the cost of food, everything is just too expensive.

I have a terrible cold right now, it has gone from my head to my chest. I feel better than I did two days ago, but worse than yesterday, though I still have to work today. People think I am silly for taking homeopathic medicines, but honestly I’d rather not poison my body with big pharmaceuticals. Though now Daughter seems to have caught it and I have to try to get her better. I don’t mind me being miserable while I my body fights off this infection, but I worry about her. I know she is strong, but how long will it take her and how long will she be out of school? So now I have to make the hard decision of having her take what I take or buying her chemical laden “medicines” to help her get well. Honestly its not an easy decision. Its hard to decide what is best for her, when I know the demons of one or the other or both.

Anyway I am off to work. Lets hope I survive. I feel terrible, but I have to work to pay the rent.

 

“Let Food be your medicine, and your medicine be your food” – Hippocrates